The Brighter Side of Terror is an album of alternate mixes of songs written and preformed by Disappearance of Anna, released May 1, 2008 on Jamendo. It is a good mix of dark techno and poppy industrial sound, much like Nine Inch nails, Gravity Kills or Front 242.
“Jacob's Reprise,” “collectively silent (boxing robots mix and rocker stocker mix),” “seen not said,” and “letch (serpent's apple mix)” are all songs from their first EP, “the Missing.” “Jacob's Reprise” is a re-mix of “Jacob's Hope, the first song from the EP. The other songs are new recordings, re-mixed from the final version, yet to be released. “Last in line (detox mix),” “running away from (zombies mix and murder mix),” “in the garden of my mind (everything goes black mix),” and “stars are out (wet grass mix)” are all new songs, remixed from the final unreleased versions of the songs. “the files gather around the mouth” is a remix of “last in line.” alone in the dark” is a remix of “collectively silent.” “The inside (muddy puddles mix,” and “war (ogre's mix)” are new tracks recorded specifically for this album.
This is the first official release from the band two years after Jason Curtiss left. Curtiss wrote the original lyrics for “last in line,” “collectively silent” and “Jacob's Hope” (“Jacob's Reprise”). David Logan rewrote/reorganized some of the lyrics for “last in line” and “collectively silent.” Joey Payton and David Logan both did some re-organization of Jacob's Hope, however they lyrics found on Jacob's Reprise were written solely by Jason Curtiss. Curtiss also plays the bass in Jacob's Reprise. Curtiss wrote the original bass for “collectively silent,” and “letch” but the bass was re-written by David Logan and David Williams after Curtiss left the band.
the flies gather around the mouth
Act I
("Why is this happening?")
("Why is this happening?")
("I can't believe this is happening")
Act II
The light is fading
My mind’s erasing
Blood on my hands
Intoxicating.
Act III
You are Bleeding
Lyrics by Jason Curtiss & David Logan
Music by David Logan and Dave Williams
Vocals by Kristine Ferriman & David Logan
last in line (detox mix)
Act I
Intoxicating
The light is fading, My mind’s erasing, Hands need washing, Intoxicating
The light is fading, My mind’s erasing, Blood on my hands, Intoxicating
The light is fading, My mind’s erasing, Knife in my hands, Intoxicating
The light is fading, My mind’s erasing, You are Bleeding, Intoxicating
Act II
I look to the sun, My eyes are burning.
The blind man screaming, His eyes sown shut.
The wolf is feeding children, The cold that I'm fearing.
All alone again, I drop a hit and run
Here I lay on the waiting table, I’m writing my torn fable
On pages made of skin, And inked in my own blood.
Close my eyes my dreams are calling,
My ears are bleeding from silent screams…
The light is fading, My mind’s erasing, Hands need washing, Intoxicating
The light is fading, My mind’s erasing, Blood on my hands, Intoxicating
The light is fading, My mind’s erasing, Knife in my hands, Intoxicating
The light is fading, My mind’s erasing, You are Bleeding, Intoxicating
Act III
Take a breath, My body’s choking.
These memories they stain, Like fabric birthing through new skin.
With hands on my face, This is the mask I paint.
No longer a man I see, No longer an abstract being.
Time is still, The hourglass is empty.
The sands of time spread out, Here on the wings of change.
Where I go the shadows don't follow.
The path I take and there's no tomorrow.
The light is fading, My mind’s erasing, Hands need washing, Intoxicating
The light is fading, My mind’s erasing, Blood on my hands, Intoxicating
The light is fading, My mind’s erasing, Knife in my hands, Intoxicating
The light is fading, My mind’s erasing, You are Bleeding, Intoxicating
Lyrics by Jason Curtiss & David Logan
Music by David Logan & Dave Williams
Vocals by David Logan
running away from (zombies mix)
Act I
I can taste the murder on your tongue.
I feel the desertion of our hearts.
Wash it all away, wishing we could stay, trapped in the embrace,
Of two empty hearts, callous on our souls.
Bashing in the skin, corruption from within,
Abandon what is left, shattered by a love,
Betrayal from a kiss, how the arrow missed.
A promise of hopelessness is trapped inside
And the darkness remains after everything we tried...
A touch of light
Straighter than an arrow
Smaller than a pin prick
To break free from… this?
My skin is crawling to you, calling to you.
My soul fears this, wanting me to flee.
Act II
I feel my soul has ripped itself away,
As this keeps crawling towards me.
Shallow from the start, ripping me apart, seething from within,
Tearing at the veins, ‘til no hope remain, how did this begin?
Passions in the dark, lost in this embrace
Winding road we take, touch so gently now.
Spiral further down, until nearly drown.
Blood in rushing in, I am on the fringe.
Want it flooding me, until I cannot see
It grows stronger within me
My skin is crawling to you, calling to you.
My soul fears this, wanting me to flee.
My anger gives up wanting to give in.
Gently I cut my skin for you again.
Act III
We are under water now,
Trapped together here somehow.
Looking for a way, out of this embrace, from beneath the ice.
Attracted to the skin, tearing this apart, drowning in the rage.
Lines upon the skin, wishing we could stand, after all the cuts.
Searing at the hole, picking at the skin, tormented again and again,And again, and again, and again, and again, and again, and again,
And again, and again, and… I’m still running away from…
I’m still running away from…
Searing at the hole, picking at the skin, tormented once again.
I’m still running away from…
I’m still running away from…
Lyrics by David Logan
Music by David Logan David Williams & Rich Ratvaski
Vocals by David Logan
in the garden of my mind (everything goes black mix)
Act I
it is getting softer now
sitting here stings me somehow
i cannot forget you face
i cannot seem to leave this place
staring lost and alone
you are now going home
the ocean is now calling me
cold and bruised setting free
broken memories beckon me
erase the doubts of what we use to be
back then we were so strong
i had a place i could belong
now i wonder lost right here
all the ghosts we use to fear
are you waiting just beside of me
or is that you calling for me?
Act II
in the garden of my mind
i look for you but i find
a shallow wall it's all i see
my memories are haunting me
i crawl deep inside your soul
i find your heart and then i pull
you down here with me
so we can share in this suffering
everything goes black now
everything goes black now
everything goes black now
everything goes black now
Lyrics by David Logan
Music by Dave Williams
Vocals by David Logan
alone in the dark
Music by David Logan & Dave Williams
collectively silent (boxing robots mix)
Act I
The night grows long, the moon holds true,
Shadows dancing form the face of you.
Sleep tight, I’ll be there tonight.
The door breaks, the light sneaks in,
I just don’t know where to begin.
Hold tight, I’m coming for you.
I pass the moon lit window lights,
The air is cold amid these flights.
I walk these steps, every night,
Your eyes open just slight.
Am I dreaming?…
I need you!
Fall asleep, it’s nothing to be scared of.
I’m almost there, I smell you on my lips.
Silently, I will find you.
Don’t you run away from me my love.
Act II
The door stands open I hold true,
Every promised whispered to you.
I can taste, Your last breath.
Swallow the emptiness you’ve given me,
Pull trigger, let my demons free.
I love the innocence, Stemming from you.
Don’t you fear, I have been true,
I know just what I have to do.
I shudder with love and hate for you,
Trembling with passion as you turn blue.
Your breath I am taking...
I need you!
One last sleep, it’s nothing to be scared of.
We’re almost there, together forever tonight.
Silently, I will find you.
Don’t you run away from me my love.
Act III
Clenched fist standing in front of you,
I couldn’t do what my head told me to.
Why am I staring, At your green eyes?
All I wanted was a moment for us,
Something to hold, something to touch.
Something, To last a life time.
Here I stand for all we could be,
Haunting me you are all I see.
You are the one, please set me free, (I am not free)
Now here they come for me!
Fall asleep, there’s nothing to be scared of.
I will not go until your eyes show me the way.
Silently, I will find you.
Don’t you run away from me my love.
(Don’t open your eyes)
Lyrics by Jason Curtiss & David Logan
Music by David Logan, Dave Williams & Jason Curtiss
Vocals by David Logan
the inside (muddy puddles mix)
Act I
I feel like I am dieing
Guess the storm is raining down
And with all the lies I've heard today
I think I may drown
For the right or for the wrong
I have given it all away
And for all it was I think
All that's left is rot and decay.
(on the the inside)
Act II
“I can hear the music not so far away”
I can hear the music not so far away
I will face it another day
Now that day has come and gone
This will be our final song
on the inside
Act III
I think I'm afraid of the darkness
I'm afraid of who I am
All is rot and stains I know
You placed it here to watch it grow
You'd think I'd be afraid of not knowing
But I think I know just where this will end
I am growing closer and closer
To you my final friend
Lyrics by David Logan
Music by David Logan
Vocals by David Logan
war (ogre's mix)
Act I
We are the magazine, the gun that kills, the salt poured in your wound.
We are the souls that cry, weeping tears, fingers pointing at you.
Breathe in the frozen air; we are the winds that chill you to your bones.
In the dark, know we’re there, waiting silently for you.
(We are you)
Act II
We are the broken flesh, the knife that cuts, just to watch you bleed.
We are the voice you hear, calling out, telling what to do.
Drinking from the broken cup, poisoned ail, to bring you to your knees.
A gasp of breath, your head held down, just below the calm.
We are you, We are you
We are you, We are you
Act III
We are the look that kill, disgrace you hide, the only thing you own.
We are the whitest lie, the sharpest tongue, drilled into your head.
The sweat is dripping down your face, from the anguish and the shame.
Pulling tight, don’t fight the reigns, controlled is what you crave.
(We are you)
Act IV
We are the purest dreams, the whitest scenes, yet everything you dread.
Drinking the water down, 'til all have drown, swallowed up by you.
We are the ones who weep, who dare to sing, whispering the truth.
In the dark, know we’re there, waiting silently for you.
Act V
Abash, deface, defile, degrade, humiliate,
Shot down, smear the stain
You are the blot,
Confounded, confused, so used,
We are you...
Abash, deface, defile, degrade, humiliate,
Shot down, smear the stain
You are the blot,
Confounded, confused, we are you so used
Abash, deface, defile, degrade, humiliate,
Shot down, smear the stain
You are the blot,
Confounded, confused, so used...
so used.
Lyrics by David Logan
Music by David Logan & Dave Williams
Vocals by David Logan
seen not said
Music by David Logan
letch (serpent's apple mix)
Act I
Where is the truth? Swallowed up by lies.
It just keeps getting bigger, But don’t judge by size.
What you want, You can reach almost.
Your fingers could grasp it, Who can stretch most.
All I need is one more okay.
All I need is to push you away.
All I need is to make my last stand.
I need something, something.
Act II
Chain me down, Who has kept me here?
All those stories you told, Never meant a thing.
Broken teeth, Is the love you mean?
Ashamed of the truth, Ashamed of me.
All I need is one more okay.
All I need is to push you away.
All I need is to make my last stand.
I need something, something.
Act III
Act IV
Brose the flesh, What peace does this bring?
I choke down the food, Paranoia and fear.
Lap it down, Loath the hate it breeds.
I’m licking the bowl, Bite the hand it feeds.
All I need is one more okay.
All I need is to push you away.
All I need is to make my last stand.
I need something, something.
Lyrics by David Logan
Music by David Ferriman Jason Curtiss & Dave Williams
Vocals by David Logan
stars are out (wet grass mix)
Act I
feeling small, there's nothing i can get into.
try to hide, so i run away from...
there i go, smiling while staring into the sun.
washed away, all the stains i've tried to hide.
Act II
standing tall, it's the hardest thing i will do.
stripped away, from everything i cling on to.
stars are out, try to count everyone i see.
feeling small, when i see the sky above me.
Act III
here we are, in the vast emptiness of space.
the earth is our star ship and we are longing to break free.
in the end, will this really matter?
or will we all just end up what we see?
Lyrics by David Logan
Music by David Logan
Vocals by David Logan
"M" (thumb sucking mix)
Music by David Logan and Dave Williams
running away from (murder mix)
Act I
I can taste the murder on your tongue.
I feel the desertion of our hearts.
Wash it all away, wishing we could stay, trapped in the embrace.
Of two empty hearts, callous on our souls.
Bashing in the skin, corruption from within,
Abandon what is left, shattered by a love,
Betrayal from a kiss, how the arrow missed.
A promise of hopelessness is trapped inside
And the darkness remains after everything we tried...
A touch of light
Straighter than an arrow
Smaller than a pin prick
To break free from… this?
Act II
(tearing at the hole, picking at the skin)
My skin is crawling to you, calling to you.
My soul fears this, wanting me to flee.
Shallow from the start, ripping me apart, seething from within
Lines upon the skin, wishing we could stand, after all the cuts
Tearing at the veins, ‘til no hope remain, how did this begin?
Act III
I feel my soul has ripped itself away,
As this keeps crawling towards me. . .
Searing at the hole, picking at the skin, tormented once again
(tearing at the hole, picking at the skin)
Act IV
We are under water now,
Trapped together here somehow.
Lyrics by David Logan
Music by David Logan & Dave Williams
Vocals by David Logan
collectively silent (rocker stalker mix)
Act I
The night grows long, the moon holds true,
Shadows dancing form the face of you.
Sleep tight, I’ll be there tonight.
The door breaks, the light sneaks in,
I just don’t know where to begin.
Hold tight, I’m coming for you.
I pass the moon lit window lights,
The air is cold amid these flights.
I walk these steps, every night,
Your eyes open just slight.
Am I dreaming?…
I need you!
Fall asleep, it’s nothing to be scared of.
I’m almost there, I smell you on my lips.
Silently, I will find you.
Don’t you run away from me my love.
Act II
The door stands open I hold true,
Every promised whispered to you.
I can taste, Your last breath.
Swallow the emptiness you’ve given me,
Pull trigger, let my demons free.
I love the innocence, Stemming from you.
Don’t you fear, I have been true,
I know just what I have to do.
I shudder with love and hate for you,
Trembling with passion as you turn blue.
Your breath I am taking...
I need you!
One last sleep, it’s nothing to be scared of.
We’re almost there, together forever tonight.
Silently, I will find you.
Don’t you run away from me my love.
Act III
Clenched fist standing in front of you,
I couldn’t do what my head told me to.
Why am I staring, At your green eyes?
All I wanted was a moment for us,
Something to hold, something to touch.
Something, To last a life time.
Here I stand for all we could be,
Haunting me you are all I see.
You are the one, please set me free, (I am not free)
Now here they come for me!
Fall asleep, there’s nothing to be scared of.
I will not go until your eyes show me the way.
Silently, I will find you.
Don’t you run away from me my love.
(Don’t open your eyes)
Lyrics by Jason Curtiss & David Logan
Music by David Logan, Dave Williams, & Jason Curtiss
Vocals by David Logan
Jacob's Reprise
Act I
To see, to believe that you’re not forgotten,
Hold me, say every thing's okay.
‘Cause with a little luck you’ll find your way home.
(Find your way home, you’ll find your way home.)
Lyrics by Jason Curtis
Music by David Logan Jason Curtis and Dave Williams
Vocals by David Logan